Life is beautiful.....

Sometimes I feel my life is just a series of bad decisions. I feel that I shouldn't be doing what I am doing now ? I shouldn't have studied what I did ?

I'm thinking is life so far just good ? satisfying ? Exhilirating ? Amazing ? pathetic ? Passable ? F*$&ed Up ?

So many questions .... yet no answer ... There were so many things that I always wanted to do when I was young. I wanted to be a pilot, a football player, a magician, a director, cook .... just so many things. Did I really decide when I was 3 that I am going to do what I am doing right now ? That I would be studying what I did ? I guess all I did was make an informed decision based on market conditions, my family, my loved ones , my need of money,etc. I would be much happier fighting for the people for a simple thing like giving poor people water ..... fighting against corruption .... living a life in a self-sufficient farm .... etc.

What if I was born in a poor family ... with no access to good housing, sanitation, let alone good education ? Would I still be where I am today ? I guess I would not ...

What I am trying to get at is that ... everyone lives one life. Everybody spends a third of their life sleeping ... the other third working for somebody... Out of the remaining third, you spend 2 hrs a day driving ... 3 hrs a day with your family. So where does that leave you with time for yourself ? Maybe 3 hrs a day ... !

So in "your" entire life ... its yours only for 3 hrs a day * no of days you are alive. Thats really sad ... whats the whole point of living this life when you really can't do something fruitful ... something where "your" life is worth living for ? Now people may say that life is really worth for the family , your loved ones, your sleep or even your work .... but c'mon why don't you think about yourself for once. Family, love, money are good things, but they are not the only reason why you're alive. You're alive for yourself ... to discover things, to enrich your life ... make it so f%*%ing fullfilling to live life. Family, Love and Money are not something that you're gonna take with you when you die. Its your deeds that count.

Why don't you do something for the people ? Why don't you make "your's" as well as many others life worth living ? Why don't you live every day like its your last day ... Its something for you think about ... 'cause I certainly am.

Live life beautifully ...